but on a lighter note, my mission papers are officially in! they went in last tuesday, so my call should be coming in a couple weeks at the most . . . maybe before christmas if i am a really good girl. we'll see! lots of people have been guessing where i'll get called and everyone asks me where i want to go. every time someone asks me that i go through an internal struggle because i actually do have an opinion and i know i shouldn't! and i am afraid of what must be happening to my chances every time i tell someone my real opinion. i'm sure i have cursed myself plenty already, so i guess there's no harm in posting it. alright i'll just come out and say it . . . i don't want to go to a visitors' center. for the most part when people ask i tell them that and then just smile and we move on. i behave myself pretty well. but sometimes when people try to convince me that i'm wrong for not wanting to go there, i get pretty animated in explaining why i'd rather take ice cold showers than get facials on p days. one time it got pretty bad. i internally cringed after i declared to someone, "a visitors' center mission is not a real mission!" i'm really not trying to tempt god i promise. i repented of that one don't worry. i definitely see the need for sisters there, and i'm overjoyed that there are girls out there that want to go there, but i just don't feel like it's for me. which, yes, i realize is completely bad.
so, where do i think i am going? . . . salt lake city utah temple square. bring it on.
